Yay! I finally graduated. It took much longer than I had planned due to circumstances and failures. I know though that through each mistake and through each circumstance, God was in control. It feels good to know I am done, but I also find myself in a time of uncertainty. I walk through the land of limbo. I do know what way to go next. Still I find comfort in the fact that God is still in control. Even though I might walk through the valley of the shadow of death, His hand shall still steady me (Psalms 23:4). It took me almost ten years to graduate. The last 3 years, I was just trying to finish the last class I needed - college algebra. It is humiliating that I had to take it so many times, but this trial of math was just something I had to persevere through to become a better person. Looking back, I can say that I may fall, but I will not be defeated, because the Lord pulls me back up with his righteous hand. In the words of Psalms 37: 23- 24
23 The steps of a man are established by the Lord,
when he delights in his way;
24 though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong,
for the Lord upholds his hand.
The Lord has upheld me despite my falling - despite my failures. What comes next? I am uncertain. I only know that I shall know goodness. Surely, goodness and love shall follow me all the days of my life. (Psalms 23:6a)
